My Own Understanding

22.05.2011, Who could believe the universe fiddles a congruent song that they have been granted permission to hear? Who could be so audacious as to assume that their united front is the united front of all the universe—and that they are not one of the thousand thousands which stand outside? Who could believe that the fiddles of a thousand thousands fiddle with them? Who could suffer from so much vanity and exert so much arrogance onto the world? And if one could overcome their selfishness over the world—that is to say, an ego-coddling humanism—how could their modesty before the world allow them that which is so well concealed within that Christian plea, “Forgive them Father, for they know not what they do”—and best expressed in an appeal to science today?

——I wrote the previous passage many years ago. It embodies an understanding which I had then assumed—humility before the universe—opposite to a certain scientific or Christian arrogance. Now I read this passage all wrong, and I find myself having to remember how I understood it when I wrote it.

Now I want to say, “Everything is known. Everything is exactly what I can say about it, and nothing more.” The understanding here is different. What I wish to express is a modesty about what can be meant when meaning anything.

I think on an entity such as gravity, and furthermore ask myself, “What else could gravity be besides what I mean by that word?” In one use gravity may mean a sensual entity, as understood in, “Look, this rock is heavy” while raising and lowering it. Or it may be an explanation as a theoretical entity, as understood in, “These apples fell.” Or more humbly, gravity may mean something like certain results which are expected upon testing. But if I say “a mystery” then it is surely a mystery, since in naming it a mystery it is invested with meaning—mystery is then part of the entity’s constitution. And if one would choose to talk otherwise and suggest that mystery is not essential to the entity gravity, and instead think of mystery as a placeholder for that which is undiscovered, then they have not considered the ‘evolution’ which the entity gravity must take before it is wholly known.

In the end, I concluded that whether humility before the universe or a modesty about what can be meant, the attitude which I oppose remains the same from my previous understanding throughout to my new one.