Historic Entities

Should I have to dismiss the priority of any historic entity to any ‘present’ entity which has, as part of its constitution, the possibility of affirmation before the senses?—for example, sight of apple or taste of apple. Often I find that historic entities strike me harder than ‘present’ entities—and do so in such a way that they draw me away from anything ‘actually’ present—I have placed ‘actually’ and ‘present’ in quotation marks since any historic entity is just as present. I mean, any historic entity exists only as a memory or as a story which has been written, and that memory or the reading, telling, or hearing of a story is surely present.

Imagine a scene in which two are lying in bed together. One reveals to another a past which involves a moral offense of sexual nature. It would not be too hard to imagine that this historical entity could color the moment. Surely the presence of this historic entity has potential to color the sexuality of that moment.

I, in the story of my life, allow the historic entity do what it wants to. Intensify. Color or distract. Fade away. After all, why deny myself the strength of that experience?—because of my ‘happiness’? (Opposite the wisdom of “letting go”.)